the journey of an aspiring author.

So here I am , 2014 now,..   on and off again.. I figured I either have A.D.D or have a phobia to commitment, or get bored easy. I am a restless saggitarius, a non-believer in myself. Well. This is the final journey. It is do or die. I am not getting younger :) . Time to get it done. Yes this girl who cant even commit to blogging on a regular basis. thank you my one or 2 followers lol..  I am doing it. Going for the gusto.. I am writing a book .. And in my non-committal style, I found why I had all these ideas and couldn't commit... I must do them all at same time. I know,... crazy right? .. But because I get bored and will not finish, I need to do more than one. then when I tire of one, I can go to the other. And not even in the same style.... no no ... I have to have one that is funny comedy reading, a couple that are self help of course seeing as I love to offer advice from the ups and downs that has been my life.. and one or 2 children's books, and one that just makes you go hmmm... kind of like the chicken soup for soul books.. Yes I have officially found what works for me.. It isn't 'nothing', as I thought for so many years,.... its 'everything'...   all or nothing.. that's me.. Right in line with what I heard once a perfectionist is.. they actually aren't perfect.. it is because they cant get it perfect that they wont do it at all.. Alas, I was thrilled by that theory.. true or not,.. I had finally felt I belong..
So yes aspiring author. Now,.. to decide on what name to use.. I cant commit to it.. I could use real name but I like being a mystery.. I could use real on some.. and then initials on others. some of the most popular things lately are written by authors using initials..  J.K. Rowling - harry potter ,  E.L. James - fifty shades of grey ,  E.B. White, C.S. Lewis, J.D. Salinger, and  T.S. Eliot -poet , just to name a few. So, its a thought I am seriously considering. Just because it suits me..
What else do I need. I have ideas flowing through me all the time. even walking down the street or in conversation with someone. I am now writing them down soon as I can before I forget. Then committing to sitting and doing it, write... Once I get going, I have no problem.. I can write and talk forever.  Finding the want or inspiration to sit and do it is hard.. But I have reached a point.. I only work and sleep. Something's gotta give. So what's the worst that can happen? I never ever get published? It still wont be a waste of time ...writing is necessary I believe. Even therapists tell you 'write your feelings out'  and most have tried a diary when they were young. So it is a great thing. And whether or not its real or fiction, its still therapeutic to me. It certainly beats the real time-wasters I have been doing... social media, and tv shows.. total time waster. So I am on the road,.. I am hoping you ,.. my one or 2  readers haha,...  will look back when you are reading one of my books and say I remember when she was just a blogger,.......   :)